Physician Support Groups—Every Sunday →

Register here and Dr. Wible will send your confidential link Sunday mornings.

Physician Trauma Recovery (2 pm EST) ~ Heal from suicide attempts, child abuse, residency trauma & more. (2 hours).

Pandemic Support (4 pm EST) ~ Receive help for long-haul, job loss, mandates, injury/death of family/peers. (1 hour).

Physician Business Mastermind (8 pm EST) ~ Learn advanced strategies for launching your ideal clinic, coaching or consulting business (must be Fast Track grad)(1 hour).  Join live retreat Nov 7-11.

Confidential & curated by Dr. Wible on Zoom. $97/mo. Nonrefundable once Zoom link shared. All healers welcome. To join us, register here. 

To join virtual & live retreats, contact Dr. Wible.

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2022 Physician Retreats →

Reclaim your soul & purpose in a weeklong retreat with an intimate group of physicians on the beautiful Oregon coast. For specialty-specific custom retreats, inquire here. Topics vary by month. All involve deep emotional & spiritual healing plus targeted business strategies for liberation from assembly-line medicine. Become self-actualized as the healer you were born to be in the world.

LAUNCH YOUR IDEAL CLINIC, COACHING, OR CONSULTING PRACTICE (Nov 7 – 11) Ready to leave assembly-line medicine for your dream clinic? Want to quit medicine to do what you really love? Create a side gig that becomes your main gig. You’ll leave retreat with a clear description of your ideal client, complete copy for your website, brochure to launch your business, pricing/fee schedule, client contract, and more. (Also available as a personal virtual retreat).

HEALING AFTER MEDICAL MISTAKES (Nov 14-18) Have you had intrusive thoughts after a medical error? Felt guilty after a patient death? Feeling depressed or suicidal because you may be a “bad” doctor? Have you contemplated giving up your career? Join us to share your pain and experience healing in the safety of a confidential group of health professionals who know the pain of  self-doubt—and self-abuse—in the aftermath of human error. Many suffer for decades in isolation after a medical mistake. You are not alone.


LAUNCH YOUR SPEAKING CAREER. Ever dream of delivering a TED Talk? Want to deliver your message to the world on stage? Dr. Wible will train you to confidently share your personal story and unique message. You’ll leave retreat with a completed talk (including slides), speaking contracts, and maybe even your first speaking gig scheduled.

ALL RETREATS are available virtually including memoir writing, trauma recovery, private/couples retreats & more.

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LIVE RETREATS  1) Live retreats on Oregon coast in oceanfront suites. 2) Monday – Friday with optional Sat/Sun add-on. 3) Private coaching pre/post retreat to ensure your success. 4) Most food covered (breakfasts at spa hotel plus most dinners). 5) Max 7 people per retreat. 6) Full-week tuition: $5,000 (discounted 50% for med trainees). You cover travel/hotel.

TO APPLY: Submit one-page essay on retreat you wish to join—and why you need to attend. Invitation only. First come, first served. For specialized private retreats (including psychedelic & guided shamanic journeys), inquire here.

ALL RETREATS 100% DEDUCTIBLE as a business expense.

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Dr. Jonathan Drummond-Webb: His Life & Legacy →


𝐎𝐧 𝐏𝐡𝐲𝐬𝐢𝐜𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐒𝐮𝐢𝐜𝐢𝐝𝐞 𝐀𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬 𝐃𝐚𝐲 𝐦𝐚𝐲 𝐰𝐞 𝐡𝐨𝐧𝐨𝐫 𝐃𝐫. 𝐃𝐫𝐮𝐦𝐦𝐨𝐧𝐝-𝐖𝐞𝐛𝐛—𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐛𝐫𝐨𝐤𝐞𝐧 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐬 𝐮𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐥 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐝𝐚𝐲 𝐡𝐞 𝐝𝐢𝐞𝐝 ❤️‍🩹 Chief of Pediatrics and Congenital Heart Surgery at Arkansas Children’s Hospital, Dr. Jonathan Drummond-Webb had the lowest mortality rate of all US pediatric surgeons at 1.8%!

He could repair complicated defects in hearts the size of an adult’s thumb—and his flair with patients and families—made him a surgical star, a hero in a 2002 prime-time TV show. Here’s a 325-gram baby he operated on weeks before he took his own life. He competed in triathlons to keep himself “in shape for surgery,” set a frenetic surgical pace performing three times the “normal” amount per year (830 in 18 months) claiming “I have a bit of an extreme personality” and “what I do demands ultimate perfection.”

Some doctors would celebrate saving 98 out of 100. A hypercritical perfectionist, Jon would say, “I lost two out of 100.” His pursuit of excellence led to chronic frustration. He had extremely abusive parents, father was jealous of him & didn’t even attend his medical graduation. Jon’s angst was internal—he judged his subtle imperfections and a voice in the back of his mind said, “That’s not good enough: I could have done better.” He considered himself an advocate and protector of children, as well as a surgeon.

He implanted the first successful pediatric heart pump. Travis Marcus was first in the world to get a heart transplant and that implant kept him alive until a donor heart was found. Dr. Drummond-Webb flew to Houston to procure the organ himself and gave Travis his new heart in November 2004. Determined to be home for Christmas, Travis left the hospital on December 23, 2004—with a bear hug from his doctor—who then went home and ended his life. On Christmas, he barricaded himself in his study & overdosed on pain meds and alcohol. He was 45. He left a five-page profanity-laced note criticizing the US medical system.

Jon was married to the physician love of his life who said, “He had no signs of depression—even if he did, he wouldn’t seek help for fear of how could he perform surgery with only 1.8% mortality if on drugs.” In fact, his wife faced discrimination by med boards and employers because she needed antidepressants to cope with Jon’s death. She had to fight to keep her own medical license!

In 2017, I called his wife to ask if I could honor her husband in a documentary on physician suicide. She said, “You’re the first person who has called wanting to honor my husband since he died 13 years ago!”

She told me, “Had my husband died of cancer, they would have erected a statue of him in the middle of town. Since he died by suicide, we’ve both been shunned.”

So please join me today in honoring the surgeon who saved the lives of thousands of children—all grown up now—thanks to the man with the greatest skill to heal the tiniest hearts.

Jonathan Drummond-Webb

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Physician trainees prevail in strike over harassed doctor’s suicide →


Dr. Omkar, 30-year old pediatrician trainee died by suicide after years of alleged racial harassment by head of department. Dr. Omkar is from a lower caste tribe, the only son with 2 younger sisters. Elder sister just married the day prior to his suicide. Head of department denied him leave for the wedding even though his peers agreed to cover his shifts. He was found hanging from the hospital dorm ceiling fan with the dupatta he’d bought as a wedding gift for his sister. (Most doctors in India choose this same method of suicide to end their pain).

I’m told by residents the head of department harassed all students. Omkar bore the brunt. Bullying is used to control trainees—a divide-and-conquer tactic creating fear among victims by targeting the most vulnerable. I’ve been studying doctors suicides for 10 years. Having investigated 1,710 cases, I know of many bullied residents who choose to die by suicide.

Colleagues protested outside the department head’s home——an indefinite strike—demanding her immediate arrest, compensation for family, and full investigation. Unlike US, in India doctors strike rather than return to inhumane hospitals that so often censor doctor suicides, force “resilience modules” on grieving peers, and do nothing about abuse. On day three of the strike, all their demands were met, plus a pediatric ward will be named after Dr. Omkar.

The head of department has been booked under Section 306 of the Indian Penal Code—abetment to suicide. Unlike the US, India holds perpetrators accountable. Notes may even be read on the evening news and often name the culprit who is then taken down to the police station the same day.

In the US, I’ve never seen one culprit held accountable in 10 years. No media coverage. Just silence.

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Second victim syndrome suicide →

Remembering Nurse Hiatt & Baby Kaia on the anniversary of a medical error that led to her loss of life. Kim Hiatt, a NICU nurse, was accused of caring “too much”—until September 14, 2010, when she gave 1400 rather than 140 mg of CaCl) to a frail 8-month-old, whom she’d cared for many times & was close to the family—who forgave her. Devastated, she admitted her mistake immediately.

“I was talking to someone while drawing it up. Miscalculated in my head. First med error. I am simply sick about it.”

Her boss escorted her from the hospital where she’d worked 27 years. Panicked, she phoned to check on Kaia. Was told not to call. 5 days later Kaia was gone. A cardiologist said the error likely exacerbated cardiac dysfunction, though lawyers said it would be impossible to prove the overdose was the cause of her demise.

Kim was fired for a single medical error in a quarter-century of service. Placed on board probation, she felt “unemployable” in the career she loved. Distraught, she hanged herself at home 7 mo. later—ALL due to a math error.

“No one needed to punish Kim. She was doing a good job of that herself.” ~ NICU Nurse

Nurse Hiatt loved her job & she loved baby Kaia. The first victim was Kaia. The second victim was Kim—so traumatized she could no longer bear to be alive. 500 people were at her memorial. (I know many doctors and pharmacists who suffer from “second victim syndrome” with constant thoughts of ending their pain by their own hands years after medical errors—even when patients are unharmed). Why punish victims? Let’s create a safer system—with compassion. If we fire everyone who makes a mistake, we’ll have no nurses or doctors.

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Why doctors don’t get mental health care →

As doctors, we deal with things you’d never want to see—mangled teens in car wrecks, new moms diagnosed with cancer, child abuse, and more. So much trauma leads to PTSD. No surprise we have a high suicide rate. We’re three times more likely to die by suicide than our patients.

And (here’s the kicker) we’re PUNISHED if we seek help.

When we apply for a license, in tiny font print, right before the signature line, we read:

The submission of an application to the Board shall constitute and operate as an authorization by the applicant to each physician or health care practitioner whom the applicant has consulted or seen for diagnosis or treatment—as a waiver by the applicant of any privilege or right of confidentiality.

Mississippi Medical Board Application

Same language on hospital credentialing applications. Even some health plan contracts.

Here’s what my physician friend has endured:

“After the unexpected death of a patient, I sought counseling. By a stroke of (bad) luck, I picked the only one in town in charge of impaired physician monitoring. He told the board (though stable) I should be ‘monitored.’ I had to defend myself in front of the Florida board. They laughed in my face and then posted in the local newspapers that I was sentenced to 5 yrs of monitoring. I had mandatory Wednesday group therapy. Though I was an exemplary physician, my employers had to be told why I was unavailable for call every Wednesday. Each time I (re)credential with hospitals, I must explain the whole thing again. HIPAA for me does not exist. I have never missed a single day of work for mental health.”

To avoid public shaming and license repercussions, a family doc told me:

“I’ve been in practice 20 years and have been on antidepressants all of that time, I drive 300 miles to seek care and always pay cash. I am forced to lie on my state relicensing every year. There is no way in hell I would ever disclose this to the medical board—they are not our friends.”

A male doc told me:

“Do you know what really hurts? The fact that anyone can look me up on the Internet and read my dirty laundry.m I’m publicly shamed [by my medical board], punished for being ill. I will only know peace when I am gone.”

So that’s messed up. We help suffering people. Yet we can’t get help. We spend our careers protecting the confidentiality of patients that we can never enjoy. On behalf of all the suicidal doctors I speak to, let’s stop punishing doctors.

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